🕯🪬💋 --> THA EROTIC REVELATION.
[ spiritual goonery. ]
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]“...the erotic offers a well of replenishing and provocative force to the woman who does not fear its revelation, nor succumb to the belief that sensation is enough.”
[ Lorde, Audre. ]
[ tha revelation of a lifetime. ]
Before diving all the way into the healing powers of the erotic — as your sexual shaman, I want to take you on a bit of a vision quest first into why this taboo topic is not only relevant, but extremely transformative.
With most of the vision quests I’ll be taking you on, we will begin with my affinity for astrology and the landscape of my natal chart - mainly because this is a terrain that also serves as the foundation for our individual journeys in this lifetime.
For those who are unfamiliar with astrology and natal charts, a natal chart is basically a snapshot showing the placement of the planets at the exact moment or minute of your birth. This map of the planets is measured by 12 houses that each represent the different aspects & factors of life.
In my natal chart I have a stellium [ clusters of 3 or more planets/asteroids] in the 2nd & 8th houses.
The 2nd house represents one’s personal finances, self-worth, concept of value & material possessions — while the 8th house represents the occult, sorcery, death, sex, taxes, other people’s money, deep intimacy, transformation and power.
With my Sun, Venus, Jupiter & Chiron all in the 8th house, this is literally my muthafuckin’ domain out this heaux. In examining my stellium in this house, I’ve come to the revelation and understanding that my purpose involves sexuality and sexual healing, which led to my exploration of BDSM — and in particular sensual BDSM.
My exploration of BDSM, Kinks & Fetishes got even deeper once I decided to become a phone sex operator and a virtual dominatrix in early 2022. As I gained clients and went deeper into their subconscious needs & cravings — I realized the healing that began to happen, not only for my clients, but for myself as well.
[ tha luxury to heal. ]
Generations of Black Women have been made to feel like making space to heal their feelings of depression, unworthiness and powerlessness was a waste of everyone’s time, energy and money; that they were simply a burden to those they loved and that all the time & emotional support they invested in others, they weren’t worthy of receiving or they didn’t deserve themselves.
I remember years ago, as I swam through the emotional muck & filth of my depression, suicidal thoughts and feelings of unworthiness — my mother made a comment that really gave me pause, she said when she was my age she “didn’t have time to be depressed”; like depression was somehow a vacation that one schedules on their calendar to avoid life, as you can imagine I was thoroughly offended by yet another one of her insensitive comments.
As a Black Woman whose experienced molestation as a child, sexual assault from an ex, sexual harassment from a co-worker and having been in two psychiatric wards due to self-harm in the form of cutting — which came as a result of my previously unhealed trauma — this was just another message that made me feel like how I felt didn’t matter, which is how so many Black Women feel day-in and day-out.
For so long I had lost autonomy over my body, voice and personal power in pretty much every area of my life until I stumbled upon BDSM — which emphasized the key elements of Consent, Boundary Exploration and Personal Empowerment.
In 2022, I moved by myself to Memphis, TN to start over and a few months prior to that I had begun being interested in becoming a Dominatrix & Phone Sex Operator. As I explored the space of BDSM, I not only became privy to the underbelly of sexuality that festers and runs rampant under the radar due to sexual abuse & shame, but I also gained a new perspective on the possibilities available in the realm of sexual healing — attached to the sub-sect of Sensual BDSM — which was pretty foreign to me.
As I gained experience and clients, I began experimenting with sensual BDSM as a healing and empowerment tool as it pertained to my sexual trauma and my past consensually unsatisfying sexual encounters.
“The erotic is a resource within each of us that lies in a deeply female and spiritual plane, firmly rooted in the power of our unexpressed or unrecognized feeling...” [ Lorde, Audre. ]
[ as tha powers culminate. ]
Throughout my exploration of sensual BDSM and the erotic, I’ve come across some valuable, multi-faceted gems that serve as powerful healing agents that can be applied to the unique sexual trauma of Black Women. These healing agents have sparked my enthusiasm to dive deeper into this healing work and they’ve also given me back my voice to call back the pieces of my feminine knowing I thought I’d lost for good.
My hope is that the healing powers I’ve curated here will serve as powerful tools on your continued vision quest as you call back your feminine knowing from the desolate places they may lie — as you honor your femininity in ways that give you the audacity to worship yourself.
🌹 Are you interested in learning more about the erotic healing agents of Sensual BDSM as it pertains any trauma you may have experienced?
🕯️ Have you ever been sexually violated & felt there was no way to gain autonomy back over your body?
🔮 How do you feel about the options for sexual healing & wellness that are currently available?
💎 Have you been slacking when it comes to caring for the sexual deity within?